Walking among giants

05.26.09 - No H8
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Yesterday Juan and I walked through Balboa Park and met with his sister Mari and her fiance, Morgan, along with thousands of others who planned to march to San Diego's Hall of Justice in protest the decision of California's Supreme court to uphold Prop 8.

As an American I feel that the court made the right decision. What type of democracy would we have if a court of the land denied and threw out a proposition which was decided by a majority of the people? The justices did their duty and upheld the law... although its not something I agree with NOR feel is just...
For that reason I took to the streets of to protest! It was a great experience.

There were people of all backgrounds, races, religions(even MORMONS!) and they all have a story. Just thinking of my own story and how I came to grips with who I am ... I could hardly begin to imagine the countless stories, experiences, tragedies and trails those marching next to me, with me, could share. Walking down those streets hearing their cries for equality and knowing they were not afraid to stand up for their rights... helped me to realize

I WAS WALKING AMONG GIANTS

Fress Breff,,, Mormon?

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I wish I had seen them while I was marching... It would have been interesting to hear what they have to say... never-the-less it's a BREFF of FRESS air!
Here's To YOU Mormon marcher!!!

(I'm not suggesting that this guy in the photo is gay... just glad he was there... as a Mormon... supporting the cause. OK?)

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this MORNING California DECIDED TO UPHOLD prop 8!!!?

Although there are many people angry, I think we should stay positive! 18,000 couples are STILL married! As far as I am concerned... those are 18,000 victories!

Something that is bothering me is the HUGE finger-pointing towards the Mormon church. YES, they did support prop 8 BUT so did SO MANY OTHER religious groups... I am Mormon AND I'm gay... I'm sort of caught in between a rock and a hard place. I know church funds (tithing) was not used to support prop 8. That isn't what tithing is used for. It was private funding and donations from the members themselves were used to support Prop 8, which is perfectly fine. Aren't we ALL entitled to our opinion? It's what makes America, America!

Tonight there is a rally going on downtown and I am planning on going. I will post pics!

Positive thinking is the remedy that will cure over TIME.

A Painfully FANTASTIC weekend

This past weekend my brother, Cameron, was married. The night before a bunch of the groom'smen came over to the house with a few large bottles of vodka and we all celebrated the begginning of Cameron's new life and the end of the other. By the end of the night I ended up having four huge holes in my wall... by huge I mean larger than basketballs, a sore neck and two black eyes.
My brother has been having a difficult time adjusting to my new lifestyle, which is understandable, but because of his uneasyness my boyfriend Juan was not invited to the wedding. Knowing that I had to be respectful I didn't say anything and didn't make a big stink about it, it wasn't my wedding after all.
Sometimes... alcohol... makes me vent my inner-frustrations. Obviously Juan's not being invited to the wedding bothered me more than I thought. From about one in the morning until four or five the entire house had become a wrestling arena. The main event was my brother and I. Mostly him holding me down and telling me to calm down...
Fast-forward to the next morning-----> I woke up with a sore face and noticed my white sheets had become something like a blood splattered work of modern art and there was also a dancing chart that King Kong had apparently been using as a guide for the Vienna Waltz on my bedroom walls.
I immediately went upstairs and walked into my Mom's room where I found her and my oldest sister talking. They kind of jokingly said good morning... hinting towards the fact that I had been doing the most and keeping everyone awake the night before. Tears poured down my face as I walked towards the bed. They comforted me and said everything would be okay. I asked where Cameron was and he was still in his bed. I walked into his room and he was on the phone, probably talking to Audrey, I laid next to him and said sorry. He apologized also and reminded me that we had all said stupid things and everything would be fine.
After that the wedding went off as planned, although most of us were hung-over and I was bruised, we had one of the greatest nights of our lives. Everyone had fun! We danced the night away and celebrated the union of two people who became one. I love my family and how we get through trails, together. Although some things might seem so serious the thought of ruining one of the closest and most important relationships in your life might cross your mind... the power of family and love mends the darkest black eyes and restores the most broken of hearts and you are reminded that love conquers all and with true LOVE...

Families can get through anything...

I have THE WORST luck...

I JUST got a new beautiful phone. After about two months of using a hand-me-down from my little sister(as if that isn't bad enough) the phone was white and lilac... I felt extremely GAY using it. Every time I got a call or a text and I was in a public place... you can bet that the phone was brought out more carefully than the arc of the covenant.

Anyway... I had ordered a blackberry flip, Ugh! SO NICE! This phone came with all the bells and whistles. Well, I went out to Mo's for Cinco De Mayo and decided to get crazy on the dance floor. Throwing my hands and arms around, waving my vest open and closed... the phone fell out of my vest pocket... by the time I noticed it was gone, some lucky soul came in like a hawk grabbing it's prey.

Now that I am without and only having had the phone for less than a week it's sort of become nostalgic... LOL! If that even makes sense. Oh well...

SUCKS, MY LIFE!

Fress Breff! You oughta be in LOVE!

I can't stop listening to this song! Each time this song plays I can close my eyes and see two people in love holding hands walking barefoot in the sand, laughing while holding one another, and slow dancing cheek-to-cheek... *sigh*.

Shouldn't you oughta be...

IN LOVE

Stick? Who knew?

I got a new job with a tow company but the only thing was... I didn't know how to drive a stick! As soon as I sat in the front seat of the truck a confession quickly came out of my mouth. Luckily the guy didn't bust out in laughter like I thought he was. For about an hour I drove up and down one street and quickly got the hang of it.

Who knew!?

It happens...

So, the previous post was full of anger and stress... I actually talked with Audrey (brother's fiance) and it was rough. We said some things that weren't nice and both cried. I wrote her an apology and she wrote back. You know sometimes I get a little over-dramatic, I think it's in the genes, but it happens!

Today is my fourth day being on the LEMONADE cleanse. So many people refer to it as a diet but it's not although I have lost 11 pounds so far which is probably mostly water weight... but I feel good. My greatest concern was that by now I'd be STARVING but to be honest, there really hasn't been a deep feeling of hunger. Every now and then I will catch the sent of some delicious delicacy like Carne Asada or Tortas but I don't get crazy! Hopefully I can last until the 16Th... if not, at least to next Thursday.